Fuck it, is it 2018 yet?!

It’s been a month since my last blog post.

A month!

That’s pretty shocking…apologies!

I guess the last 6/4 weeks have been an utter shambles.

Arguments are rife with my boyfriend at the moment. Dosage was increased. I haven’t been sleeping all too great. My management consist of dick-swingers who change briefs and objectives daily. Partners dad had health problems which took up a lot of energy. It’s been pretty shit.

In fact, as I type this I’m in a foul mood. I can’t remember the last time I was this angry.

Those who follow me on Twitter will already know but yesterday, I failed to achieve both a promotion and pay rise. It’s now been 1 year and 8 months since my last.

I am to work on confidence, tidy up reporting and advise both the clients and team on Social best practice. To be clear, I do these already but I am “to take it up a notch”.

I got home at 18:50 last night and cried all evening.

I cried until there was nothing left.

My boyfriend, sat next to me, didn’t flinch. I don’t even think he noticed.

I sit in an office of 43 adults. I’m currently on a train with hundreds. Been with my boyfriend for over six years and my goodness, I have never felt so lonely.

On Wednesday, I fly into Europe for the Christmas break and I honestly can’t wait. To escape and be “unreachable” is music to my ears.

For now, I’ll have to make it through this last day…roll on 5:30. Hope my mood picks up before then.

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