Here we are.
Tuesday morning post a Bank Holiday weekend.
Like many, I’m dreading work this week. Not because I hate my job; I had a wonderful weekend and I just don’t want it to end.
Sadly, I’m not millionaire so work it is.
As I write this, I’m stood on platform 11 at Clapham Junction.
I’ve been here now for 46-minutes with no train in sight.
If I’m honest, I feel a panic attack coming on so I’m using this as a distraction.
Work won’t let me work from home which means I’m stuck here waiting.
I’m 46 minutes late and there’s still no sign of a train.
As someone who hates being late, I can’t begin to tell you how anxious I’m feeling now.
I’m sweaty, hot, hands are clammy, my heart is thumping so hard the guy next to me can probably hear it.
I keep thinking something terrible is going to happen I can feel the rage burn inside me.
Commuting to work is incredibly stressful and I’m sure this resonates with hundreds of you.
I pay £156 a month and 9/10 times, I’ll get to work late following delays, cancellations, queueing systems gone wrong…you name it.
Of course, there’s nothing I can do.
I’ll leave home early and still struggle.
But, that right there is the problem. I can’t do anything to make it better.
I don’t drive – so that isn’t an option and the train is my only way of getting to work.
When something is out of my control and going wrong, that’s when my anxiety goes from 10 – 100 in a matter of seconds.
It doesn’t help that my commute adds up to an extra day of work which is exhausting – theoretically, I’m doing an additional work day every week without getting paid.
It’d be great to know how you deal with it – the commute, the travel anxiety as quite frankly, I’m starting to wonder if my job is really worth it.