First thing first…it’s 17:49 on a Monday. Congratulations on surviving the first day! You made it. Hurrah!
For those who follow me on Twitter will already know this but I treated myself to a very lazy weekend.
I stayed in bed until 2pm (both days) & I didn’t feel bad one bit, clearly the body needed it.
I did however give myself a talking to Sunday evening.
I told myself I’d eat better this week, I’d have my clothes ironed and ready the night before & I’d try and be more “positive”.
Of course, half the time, this is total bullshit and near impossible.
Sometimes, I just about wash my hair & drink a glass of water.
Nonetheless, I’ve survived Monday & im feeling pretty good about myself.
I’ve eaten healthy (dinner is yet to be decided), I felt like “the old me” back at work & I’m not feeling anxious.
So, what changed?
Besides my “get a grip” chat last night, my work bestie was back from annual leave & oh it was good to have her back.
She’s one of the very few people who knows the full extent of my anxiety and general mental health (or lack of).
When I was signed off work for a month (and left her in the shit), she was the only one who didn’t make me feel bad for leaving.
It reminded me how important it is to surround yourself with positive people.
Some members of my family haven’t always been there for me and at times used my mental health against me.
I was often referred to being “an attention seeker” & my aunt made it very clear that she “pitied me” & that I’d “end up a lonely young girl”. Kudos for the motivational speech.
For a long time I felt shit that I couldn’t appease these rather selfish, ignorant people but then, I see in my friends the person I want to be & that makes me feel better.
Positive. Caring. Mindful. Empathetic.
All great attributes.
So, forgive me and my “attention seeking” ways while I surround myself in positivity.
If it’s good for you and good for your health, that’s all that matters.
I don’t know how long this mood will last but for now, positive vibes only, please.