Today was my first day back to reality after working from home yesterday.
I’d worked myself into a frenzy when I wasn’t getting the help/advice needed for a particular project.
I work in communications and we’re often told to take initiative and to ask questions.
Talk. Pick up the phone. Walk over to your colleagues instead of email.
Annoyingly, my line manager doesn’t feel the same & when I’ve asked for help I’m often told to “Google it”.
Of course, every manager has their own way of working and teaching. Mine is very much a “tough love” type of manager which is hard to deal with when you suffer from anxiety.
I’ve suffered from panic attacks in the past when feeling the stress.
Something they’re very aware of and yet, continue with the tough love approach.
Of course, I don’t want special treatment and 9/10 times I can handle it but sometimes, it sends me over the edge.
I recently joined Twitter from a blog perspective and I constantly see words of encouragement and wisdom to & from other sufferers.
I tweet I’m having a bad day and people come back with motivational quotes, of course, completely understanding how hard it is having gone through it themselves.
Yet, at work, I’m welcomed with a very different approach.
I was told yesterday evening (post the working day) to stop being so sensitive & to stop working myself up.
I mean, it’s not intentional, babe.
Have you read up on anxiety, Hun?
I start therapy again in September and I honestly can’t wait.
Being able to cry and vent without being deemed weak or irrational is a relief.
Personally, I can’t wait for the vocabulary to change in the workplace.
If one more person calls me “sensitive” or tells me to “grow a pair” I may just lose my shit.